:'(

im just bored

and lost

and i miss my mom

and i miss nana

and i dont know who i am

and i miss who i used to be

and i cant feel anything

and im numb

and idk what to do

and i want to feel something again

and we dont do anything anymore

we dont watch funny movies

or make up new jokes

or say our old ones

and i dont want this to die

cause we’re so bored

and i hate myself

and everything about myself

im sick of being depressed

and being sad all the time

and sleeping all the time

and being the lazy fuck that i am

and i miss my car, and driving around when i got bored

and singing real loud

and being able to get away when i want to

and im scared we’re falling apart cause we’re so bored and sick of being here, like it’s wearing away the outside of this relationship

and i miss being able to get liquor whenever i wanted to, and anything else i wanted whenever i wanted it

and i miss people talking to me all the time,

no one talks to me besides your family,

just everything

i think it's so fucking pathetic how you keep telling me over and over that you're going to quit, you're going to quit, you're going to prove it to me, you're going to show me, you're going to prove me wrong, blah blah blah, and you're just full of shit.

absolutely fucking pathetic.

like i said, don't even bother telling me you're going to quit, i ignored you when you told me that last night for a reason, because it's not fucking true.

my girlfriend is a pothead.