im just bored
and lost
and i miss my mom
and i miss nana
and i dont know who i am
and i miss who i used to be
and i cant feel anything
and im numb
and idk what to do
and i want to feel something again
and we dont do anything anymore
we dont watch funny movies
or make up new jokes
or say our old ones
and i dont want this to die
cause we’re so bored
and i hate myself
and everything about myself
im sick of being depressed
and being sad all the time
and sleeping all the time
and being the lazy fuck that i am
and i miss my car, and driving around when i got bored
and singing real loud
and being able to get away when i want to
and im scared we’re falling apart cause we’re so bored and sick of being here, like it’s wearing away the outside of this relationship
and i miss being able to get liquor whenever i wanted to, and anything else i wanted whenever i wanted it
and i miss people talking to me all the time,
no one talks to me besides your family,
just everything